Wrestling Down My Vision

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This last year has been a whirlwind of activity building a new studio and apartment in our backyard and had been a major focus of my creativity and energy. I am moved into the new space now, although not technically out of my old studio that I have been in for over a decade. To say there have been major life changes and stressors in the last year would be an understatement.  Through this whole process, many areas of my art practice have been limited. I stopped teaching regular workshops and only saw establish therapy clients, but I never stopped painting and drawing, even exploring some new techniques and multiple mediums to discover some deeper questions 
I am wrestling with as I approach my new body of work.

I am settled into the new space now and have been hosting workshops, taking on new clients and hosting community figure drawing sessions. My main focus is building a group of dynamic paintings for an upcoming solo show this November. I have focused mainly on large scale abstracts with encaustic paint over the last several years, but I have a passion for the figure, but find that it must be handled ‘just right’ for it to convey the complicated emotions I am trying to capture. This is a huge challenge for me and I am diving in and experimenting with many approaches, trying to seize the magic and power of the body and all the depth of stories it contains. I know I will never be truly satisfied, but that is the glory of giving myself an impossible challenge; I will have an ongoing inquiry of both a technical issues as well as the greater challenge of capturing the complications of the human condition over a lifetime.

There is a rawness to this work, both physically and emotionally. It is easy to over paint (which I often still do), and I am trying to find that perfect moment when to stop and leave pieces exposed or unresolved for the viewer. I want to leave my physical presence in the work, my hand, the marks I have erased or painted over, the random and deep texture of the encaustic when carved and manipulated, drips and brush strokes. I want the viewer to witness the making as much as the made in the final piece.

The content of my work is deeply personal and complex and as I get closer to completing this body of bodies, I will share more about the inner workings of my psyche as I wrestle down my vision.